So I'll Miss It ~

I left these words of mine somewhere else over the web, and they're spread out as follows: 

"There's something about 2009 that makes it, by far, my best year. And for that, it feels as if I'm held back from opening that door to welcome the new year. This remaining day is just too precious to waste away. I'll miss this year.. that much I know."

Let me tell myself what happened for the first half of today. I'll include anything that surfaces to mind, and whatever else that I think is worth telling - no matter how minute the significance it holds. This, after all, will be a day that bids goodbye to 2009. The words that I place here just suddenly seems so important this time. I think I may know why, or.. maybe I just really have no clue at all. 


So it begins.. 

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I woke up and acknowledged God with a prayer - I haven't done it for awhile but today I felt an urge that pressed me to do it. 
I took a look at the bulletin board, two of them, and a whiteboard. I decided that some of the papers stuck to it had to go. And for the whiteboard, I just had to erase a past notice. I did.
I agreed to walk down to town with a colleague knowing that it would be my last for this year. All she needed to say was, "Come.. let's go." That was it.
I snapped a couple of pictures for the changes that were happening around me. I'm missing the old look somehow.
I came up with an impromptu decision of buying my favorite "ice-cold treat" just to wish the shopkeeper a happy new year just in case she is looking forward to 2010 better than I am. 
I agreed to go out for lunch with another colleague. I went because this was my first, and especially, at that time of the day. I will treat the next time.

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Got a little emotional earlier for some reason. Still am.. the rule is it comes and goes. I find it a little hard accepting the fact that I've only got a few hours left in my hands before the year changes its figure. Time seems to be slipping away much faster today although really.. throughout history, time has always been faithfully consistent with its movement. I feel stubborn because I am.. and because I don't want to let it go. But have I got a choice?

It felt so much easier to accept the fact that I turned a year older this year. But it isn't at all with what's going to change by a matter of hours from now. No.


I know I'll come to better senses much later. So I'll just leave myself with my thoughts and feelings just as it is. No point forcing myself to think and feel otherwise when in the end, I'll find myself in prolonged self-denial. 

I'll miss it.. I really, really will.

Cooler ~

If the word 'cut' comes to your attention.. instantly pay no further attention to it.~

Andes Chocolate Mints (mint parfait) melting in my mouth.. so happens that I favor mint flavor today. Nice to have chocolate once every now and then - just not too much or you might get diabetes. Just maybe.

-Cut- 

The afternoon of today marked a moment for some of them to wave that flag of accomplishment, if of course, they've got a good feeling that they've gone through the papers quite well during the entire time or for the major part of it during those tightly-nerved hours. I am happy for them. Also, am quite sad that this really was the last for them to be in white and brown.. with that badge and the carried name. Attachment is what has caused this slightly torn feeling inside.

-Cut-

Hmm.. By the way, I got to meet with two people I've come to know during my alma mater years. Next time, I'll try to be more bold approaching people who've been part of my circle of acquaintance instead of waiting for them to notice me. I know.. it was a lame thing to do. I've got my weaknesses, okay.

-Cut-

I now feel so much lighter inside. Feeling all cooled down from yesterday's (plus the many yesterdays before it) emotions - just like the mint choc that blew a breeze to my tongue. Whoa. Having someone else to know about it makes me feel so much better. I know I made the right choice and I'm glad that the good side of my brain came to my aid. 

Thank you. Can't help it, but I really am feeling a little more colorful right now - liberated to be exact - and I want to let that sink in good.. so I let myself read this.

Nothing Like It...

Will be sleeping a happy person tonight because of the egg tarts I was able to eat... again. Started my day off with those and ended the day with the same thing. Happy it is my tummy, but I don't want to die a happy person because of it (the tart in singular form..hehe). I don't owe my happiness that much a scale to the egg tarts. 

Wished this morning that I could eat them hot from the oven - probably because of the egg tarts that I ate cold from the fridge - and... O M Gosh!!!... when it came to reality, my emotions were well beyond words.

I will definitely and absolutely add some pics of the egg tarts that I've been raving about for the past minute (that is a lie... the clock's ticked more than a minute).


To be continued... after I awake from my sleep.

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Just to let people know, I edited my post. I realized I mentioned egg tarts too many times, and I felt a little embarrassed about it. Macam apa saja.

Egg tarts and my scandalous affair with it! Ha!! 

 

 

This post is now complete. Overdue, but isn't that big a deal - I'm the boss of my own blog. Yups!

 

[Date of completion: 4th Dec '09]

Beginning of the End ~

30 days plus a few hours left before we hop in a ride of a new cycle of months. Time... never moves backwards unless the hands' of the Creator decides to do so. I'm thinking, only the attitude of people is the one that moves backwards sometimes, or it stops regressing at one point and gets stunted forever. 

Must we almost always say, "I can't believe it..." when we are referring to the passing of time? I guess so unless someone can find a better cliché to express this moment of disbelief. Don't worry, I'm not verbally attacking anyone... I say it too.

By the way... I L O V E "New Moon". Now that I've finally seen it - and my soul put at peace - I g o t to see "Ninja Assassins". I've heard and read what others have said about the latter.  

Must... Must... Must!!! Haih... ya lah bah. =.='

  

If you notice, the only picture for the day is wrongly placed and this is intentional. Yes, one of my first few purchased items of the month... and of course, my latest average worldly possessions.

Welcome back... to me.