A Tuesday Like This

Nate dropped by just awhile ago to do me a kind favor. My hp will be going to the "clinic" for yet another "treatment". It just can't get enough of it. My dear Sony Ericsson, why do this to me? In what ways have I wronged you greatly? Dropping you 3 times and other minor times? Which was not by purpose by the way.

I need motivation. Motivation to do my work more professionally. Motivation to just move forward. Motivation to clean up my room. It got messier and no, I need not go into explicit details on that.

"Fill my cup, Lord."

If I could randomly choose want I want to be today - just for this day - I want to be wearing the shoes of not a teacher but a musician. Maybe I'll be a friend of the piano. Or the violin. Or the cello. Maybe all three. I wish I had the talent like some people.

Had I the true fingers and touch of a musician, I would have not brought myself here to become what I have become. Should have taken music lessons more seriously. Feel like slapping myself real hard on both cheeks. But no, I won't. I might go deaf.

Maybe tomorrow, I think I'll imagine myself being someone else.

I hate me today - that's all.

It's A Small World After All

Like O--M--Gosh!!!

Guess who I bumped into today?

Before that, though, here was what I was doing prior to that "bump into" moment.

I was busy at the photocopying machine.
I was near finishing my business when I noticed
(without actually looking) that a group of people
had entered the registration office. I heard the word "brother".
Made me curious. Then I heard this voice - the more
dominant one from any other. It carried a slightly different
accent from the local. One from the Philippine's? Nah. Maybe not.
But my ears were in tune to the multiple conversations.
I decided to take a look after I was completely done.
And then, I was done.

I glanced up after finishing arranging some papers.
And boy, I tell you, I was damned surprised.
I had my jaw partially dropped. I would have let it drop to it's
max but then it would look just weird - for a teacher. Ha.

Popped opened were my eyes at the person across me.
Like, no way. But it was, very yes way.

Of all people, Citra!
All the way here in SASS Tamparuli Sabah Malaysia?!?!
My goodness! Waaaa!!
The last time I saw her were only in pictures.
And now, it's for real.
Seriously, I felt like saying, "Oh my!" over and over again.
At least it's better than the full jaw drop. hehe

WOWNESS!! Another Indonesian friend in less than a week. COOLNESS!! Man, I'm still smiling. Good then, so I'll be carrying a smile to my remaining 3 classes for the day.

Oh my! Oh my!

She'll be attending church tomorrow.

WAAAAAAA!!!!!!!!!

i'm so high

Hmm...
Maybe this one?

Or perhaps this?



Why not buy the two above plus this one below?! Ting!



Colossal virtual slap (from unknown force) charging towards my face.

Pak! ~!@#$%^&*()_+

Still alive.

Haih. Ambition ku sangat la besar. Tapi, soal duit tu la masalahnya.
[My ambition is big but money becomes the issue. Gah.]

Do take note that translation is not guaranteed 100% accurate.

IF

Don't you think the word above comes into your mind or slips out of your mouth a lot of times? If it doesn't with you, it does with me.

New posts didn't come up for the past week and more. I didn't quite care to log in. If I did, I bet myself that most of my posts would carry a negative tone after the last post. Wouldn't sound too nice, would it? Nah.

Smile. Here's one recent one of that from me.


People's calling me. For once, I'm needed.

Later!

Is So The Blah--ness

The job that I'm doing makes me feel like a piece of rag on the floor. Like dirt to be exact.

Another thing I'll blurt out to y'all.. I think I'm getting cross-eyed (from all the excess thinking).

All of that noise. All of that chitter-chatter. Heck, I don't even care whether that expression exists or not. All of that reminding. All of those please--s.

Wanna break down in front of the class? Nah. Not a good idea. But I did. I crumbled inside. With disappointment. Plus anger.

I don't think I can ever be good at what I'm doing.

I don't have the patience.

And the wisdom to deal with challenges that test my patience.

I wanna quit.

Do You Think You Can?

Finally got the chance to bomb down some words here today. Am using wireless connection over at a friend's place at the moment.

The bits of happenings hollering here:

I) past school week was rated below my ordinary so-so
II) prayer revival meetings going on (started yesterday night)
III) longer weekend 'cause Monday's a public holiday

Now, in response to the title of this post, here's a thing or two I'd like to throw out.

Imagine yourself without these:

No television, no internet, no radio, no talks (as in the gossip talks and anything else related to such).. none of that/those "worldly influences". Does the use of handphones count??

You think you can resist? Can you refrain yourself from any of those above?

Time frame: 10 days only

Now.. can you?

We carry the name "Christian" (for those of you who are). But how "Christian" are we?

Just something I've been keeping in mind since last night..after or sometime during the revival meeting. People.. I do listen sometimes, okay.

The spirit is willing but the flesh is weak

Or maybe in the first place, the spirit was never willing enough.

*SIGH*

count 'em off

It's March and I've been counting with my fingers on my way to work this morning. It's nice to imagine those months ticked away like that. I've got about 8 more months to go. 8 more. And it just seems too long.

It works this way. If it's good (whatever that "it" refers to) - time seems to move too fast. Then, if it's bad.. hmm.. I feel like putting it this way.. some "butt kicking" needs to be done to Mr/Mrs/Ms t.i.m.e so it would move much faster.

Must not blog or log into my FB account until at least this Friday. I'm gonna see how much can the teacher accomplish. If you see a new entry before the said day, then that is most unfortunate. I broke my word.

Peace out. Wish me luck.