Slap Me. I'm Sleepy.

I'm all sleepy due to another late night's sleep last night. My adik asked me this when he saw me, "Teacher, why your mata bongkung?" ["What's with the swollen eyes?"] I didn't make a clear answer and he made a random guess that I cried. No lah, and if I really did, you'd think I'd really blog about it? 

Uhh...nope.

I want to smile. I want to laugh. And I want to talk silly stuffs and dream of floating on clouds. Doesn't sound like I'm in my right mind right now. But, I think I am - it just needs a little tightening of the screws here and there. Tell you what, I'm on a personal mission. Won't specify on what exactly. Just wanted to tell it here for the fun of it. Yup, a slice of  what's with my life these days.

Oh yah...have you gotten around to Yahoo(!) News these days? Every time the web page shows up on the screen, there always seems to be juicy, and sometimes weird, news. Ah well, news won't get rolling if it weren't interesting enough, right?

News is fine. Just save it from all the gossip.

Feel like making a purchase today - something that had been lingering in my mind since I saw it. I told my dad about it the other time my parents brought me out. I liked it when he told me this, "If you have your own money, then go ahead and buy it." That coming from a father to his daughter makes me pull one corner of my mouth into a smile. It's nothing important, and I think if I had my own kids with their runny noses for me to be concerned of, I won't even think of spending my bucks on that. I (had) better not.

There is no pain so great as the memory of joy in present grief.

-Aeschylus-

And for the above (today's quote catch), I guess there might be some truth to that.

Bye for now. 

And...make tomorrow's Sabbath a good one. 

 

Invitation

Oh I'm glad it's Friday. I've got my reasons and if you're feeling the same about today, you've got your reasons too. 

Going over to someone's place today. Yup, a student invited the whole clan of us over to her place for Chap Goh Mei. Heading over to the house later this evening. Ok, so this will be my first to attend to such an occasion. And, I, have nothing against it.

Mari ber-Chap Goh Mei-ness!

I didn't forget...Happy Sabbath.

I Need Thee

Part The Waters/I Need Thee Every Hour

-Selah-

When I think I'm going under, part the waters, Lord

When I feel the waves around me, calm the sea

When I cry for help, oh, hear me, Lord and hold out Your hand

Touch my life

Still the raging storm in me

I need Thee every hour, most gracious Lord;

No tender voice like Thine can peace afford.

Refrain 

I need Thee, O I need Thee;

Every hour I need Thee;

O bless me now, my Savior, 

I come to Thee.

I need Thee every hour, in joy or pain;

Come quickly and abide, or life is vain. 

Refrain

This is one of the songs that I've been tuning in to sometimes lately. Why the song? Simply because it speaks the voice of my heart. It pretty much says everything I  have been feeling inside me. 

I guess there are a lot of troubled hearts out there, and unfortunately, money doesn't quite solve it (maybe part of it) even if you have loads of it in your bank account. Not to say that I'm filthy rich or anywhere close to it, or to rub anyone's nerves in the wrong way.

Anyway...

Here's the picture of the day.

Do take note that the middle finger was not intentional.

Sometimes what you see is not what it actually appears to be. 

Hoho. 

Students placing their signatures on this piece of customized postcard. Yup, someone's coming home today. I would have wanted to join with all the welcoming of the return at the airport later this evening. Hmph. Got other plans made.

I'm a little crushed, but I have only one me. I can't be at two different places which are far apart at the same time. Just an extra thought I'd like to throw in...It is true that we are unique - we're not like everyone else (in every aspect). How unique? That's up to us to decide. 

Lord, be with me now for I just don't think I can handle my burdens on my own...it's too tiring.

Intruders

I washed my hair this morning, just like some many other mornings before. It got me late to where I should be at a certain time. No, I'm not proud of that, but I'm pretty helpless to change that part of me for now. 

I missed out on some important news - that's the bad thing about being late. Dang. But the news, trust me, has nothing good in it. It only brought to the realization of the things that should have, or shouldn't have, been there in the first place before all this happened. The "what ifs", I guess, were hovering like the shape of a halo. Geez..I might be wrong.

Anyway..

Upon realizing what took place (and still cursing myself for being late), I was shocked. I didn't ask much, however - my ears simply took the course of tuning in to the conversations around me in hopes to catch bits of pieces here and there just enough to put together a picture that still had many question marks. I played into the scene trying to imitate the personality of Sherlock Holmes. Unintentional, of course. The pictures I were about to take were worth blogging material. Hoho. Careful, I just might be the next blistering annoying paparazzi you'd wish you never met.

So here it is..the pictures. I don't intend to reveal too much. 

Clearing away what had been broken. Ouch. You don't want to get those splinters past your skin.

The damaged must be replaced meaning extra (unnecessary - if the right security measures were taken at the first place, necessary - if you don't want a repeat of the incident anytime soon) cost. Just out of the blue, how long does it take for a damaged heart to be fixed?

Seeing this makes me question, "Didn't they have anything better to do?" A lightning strike would have been useful for them considering the rainy weather these days. I'm human - the mercy in me tends to leave automatically before even having the chance to exercise it.

A wave of speculation stirring in the background.

Don't we just love trails of fingerprints sometimes (yeah I know you can't spot them..same for me but I was told they were there)? Gotta bring forward the evidence. *Crosses fingers* 

Now just look at what they've done. Tsk tsk tsk.

What I learned of today, reminded me of what happened to a friend of mine before.  Of this, I won't elaborate any further.

Well..what can I say?

Shoppin' Mall

So what's with the title you might ask. Well sometimes you don't wind yourselves in such a place just to go shopping. Nah. Sometimes you want to go there (the shoppin' mall I mean just in case you've gone off track) simply because we want to be out of the house. The cool people would say 'chilling out' and since I'm not anywhere close to that, I'll just go for the good ol' ordinary 'hang out'. Ha! Yeah, sometimes I laugh at my own jokes. Just plain weird. 

And for the record by the way, this is my first time going into a cyber cafe in a shopping' mall. For the other times, the cyber cafes that I went into were located at smaller shopping lots. 

Ah anyway, I'm logging out.

People, I want french fries from McD. It's not the healthiest of food but I think I'll be buying myself some of that a few floors down. 

Here I come you unhealthy french fries!  

Sabbath's Coming! ;)

Weather this morning isn't as bright and sunny as yesterday but I don't have to be so gloomy like the sky outside - the birds are still singing anyway. I'm happy to think of tomorrow. I miss the Sabbath. It's just a few more hours to go, but somehow I already miss it for some  odd reason. 

Let's sidetrack for a moment and I'll begin it with an image I took two days ago. 

I'll tell you how this book got into my hands. 

When you're going to meet up with someone, say in a shopping mall and that person will only be showing up in about half an hour's time, and you have no one familiar to share silly stories with but yourself, head to a bookstore - saves you from the myriads of junk food sold around that temporarily satisfies any present cravings. Trust me, you won't look stupid going from shelf to shelf examining the entire row of books and opening one or two of them to get a glimpse of the contents. 

Enough with the prologue. That book you see there was pretty much the first book that I set my eyes on when I entered into that bookstore. It was like chemistry had brought us together. Ahem..that sounds a little too cliché, but anyway, I think we do need it sometimes to complete our thoughts. Hehe. As you see the book comes with quite a size that it got me thinking it's gotta be priced somewhere between RM60 - RM70. I was wrong and I'm glad I was because it made me say this in mind, "Aha!". You might have guessed already that I am now the proud owner of it, bought at RM19.80. I claimed my privileges for owning a membership card, thus a discount for my purchases of the day (I bought an extra item - sellotape).  

Jodi Picoult. I've read a few two of her other books before but I haven't gotten myself to buying a personal copy of my own. If you don't have anything against fictional books you might want to try reading one of her books. "My Sister's Keeper" got me to tears..I find it better in my imagination than the animated version of it (the movie I mean). 

"Change Of Heart". The title captured my heart instantly. Do I personally want to have a change of that in me? Yeah, definitely, if that's gonna make me a better person in the present and the future. 

Hmm..can I have a month off from work just to indulge myself in books and still get my salary coming in my bank account? I'm a slow reader that's why. I'm pretty slow in doing almost everything (except when it comes to driving - which makes me a bad driver).

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Sabbath's coming real soon! Oh dear Lord, help me to prepare my heart for your coming Sabbath day.

Smile for Jesus!

Oh dear February!

I woke up to the early moments of this morning with gratitude flowing into my heart (plus sleepy eyes..just in case you wanted to know). Got to admit that it is truly one of the best moments to talk with Him above with the surrounding stillness around you. 

It's not about what I know will happen that makes me happy..it's more of what I hope for that gives me that glow of happiness inside. Hmm..well maybe it's not that obvious sometimes when it comes to my facial expression. Sorry, I hate to say that I might have been born with such a plain expression for the most part of the time. But..let me tell you this..I laugh out loud at the wrong time sometimes. 'Wrong timing' is how the people here like to put it. Heh. So I guess that makes me as weird happy.

Well so much for the brief moment of revelation there.. It's noon, the low hungry grumbles of my tummy just came to life a moment ago. It is drowned by the sound of the air-conditioner above me and the little chatter some tables away. 

Wanna eat! Gonna be my first lunch for this month! Eat while we can! Yeah!