o.k.

Tomorrow morning, I'll be getting myself behind the wheels. I know how I'd always like to offer myself on being the driver (sadly enough, turned down too many a times)..but no. I'm just not up to it this time. Not tomorrow. Wanna be at the church with my friends. Going to other churches instead this time. Okay, so small question here..I go to church (just) to meet up with friends? What about God?

Now people..don't be too quick to judge me. That matter is between me and the Big Guy up there.

Hmm...

Oh well, I can't say no. It would be selfish of me to do so. So, no. As much as I don't want to, I simply have to.

Now simply out of the blue, here's something I've been glued to a teeny bit in the earlier hours of today.



Not exactly this. But..cars basically. Ladies..wanna consider this pearly beauty??

The German Car Blog

No. I don't fancy this one. Or to be more exact, this model. Just wanted an image that captured an air of swiftness. I'm talking about speed. Yeah.

*sigh sigh sigh*

If only.....

Haih..proton pun jadi lah bah..

Inbox

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Msg I
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My response: Don't worry lah..expire today also no problem..got back-up.

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My response: Yes, I want. But I'm thinking of the RM2 charge after the free trial's over.

Msg III
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Details: 25-Jan-2009 11:46

LOYALTY BONUS:Enjoy 25 FREE SMS to ur 8pax bcoz uve been loyal to Xpax for 16 mths. More FREE SMS next mth! To check ur SMS BAL send to 28881.

My response: Thank you! Thank you! I am greatly honored. And now, I'm thinking of adding loyalty to yet another - DIGI.

~ ~ ~ ~ ~

By the way, all those messages have been erased. What's left of them are their existence in here.

I'm not bored. And I'm not trying to ridicule my hp service provider.

I'm just...

heartbroken...

nooo

not with someone...

or anyone...

I'm heartbroken with the present state of my hp.

I'm having minimal contact with it now.

Trying to.

The scars on it cuts me right through.

Ouch.

Near Zero

Yes. Those piles are finally out of the way. 91 percent clear. Feel like taking off to some place - for peace of mind and to loosen up any little bit of those tightened nerves under my skin. Now, give me some honey so I'll have a sweeter smile =D

Still have a little more to mark..just papers..minor annoyance.

This weekend will be slightly longer than the previous ones. And before it slips my mind, "Happy..Chinese New Year!!" to my Chinese friends, those who are half of that, and also to those who only have a quarter of it (and less) running in their blood. Nah..I don't think I have any below "half".

Hope I'll be able to go out of my shell before the long weekend ends. If it doesn't happen, I won't be terribly saddened either.

I'll just dial this number.."Mom, Dad..going anywhere kah?"

I'm still very much a child. I'll leave you to interpret the various layers of meaning to that. Ha.

Gotta head home. Hope to do some of the things I had in mind before the clock strikes at a certain time.

Mmm..weekends.

Just plain happy, peeps ;)

My Deadline

It's a little over half past 4 now.

My afternoon..up until now that is..was occupied with my efforts (almost useless) on finishing up with the marking of students' work. I have 4 more piles of workbooks and exercise books.

I will shed at least one drop of tear if I fail to finish it all up by tomorrow. My long weekend must not be ruined by the thought of unfinished corrections.

Now..I must make my leave..walk home..play some tunes on the piano..and rest my mind.

Hmm..tomorrow..must be here by 6.30 a.m.

It MUST happen.

CLICK a' CLICK-ety!

Imaging Sensor/Effective Pixels:	CMOS / 10.1 megapixels
Effective Sensor Size:	22.2 x 14.8 mm
A/D Resolution Power:	14-bit
Colour Filter Size:	RGB Primary Colours
35mm Focal Length Equivalent:	1.6x
Medium:	CF Type I, II / 1 slot
RAW & JPEG Simultaneous Recording:	Yes
Viewfinder Coverage (vertical/horizontal):	0.95
Dioptric Adjustment:	-3 to +1 dpt
Interchangeable Focusing Screens:	Yes
AF Points:	9
Shooting Modes:	12 standard & 3 user defined
Metering Segments:	35
Metering Modes:	Evaluative, Partial, Spot, Centre-weighted
ISO Speed Range:	ISO 100-1600 (expandable to 3200 via CF)
Exposure Compensation:	Manual, AEB - 1/3 or 1/2-stop increments, ±2
Shutter Speed:	1/8000 sec - 30 sec, X-sync at 1/250 sec
E-TTL II Autoflash:	Yes
Built-in Flash / G. No.:	Provided / 13
Shooting Speed:	6.5 fps / 70 shot max burst
WB Settings :	9
WB Bracketing:	Yes
LCD Monitor:	TFT - 3.0 inch
Custom Functions/Settings:	TBC
Personal Functions/Settings:	Yes
Integrated Cleaning System:	Yes
Live View:	Yes
External Interface:	USB 2.0 / Video / PC Terminal / Extension System Terminal
Remote Control/Type:	Yes / N3
Battery:	Lithium Ion
Chassis Material:	Magnesium Alloy + Stainless Steel
Dimensions (W x D x H) mm:	145.5 107.8 x 73.5
Weight (excl. battery in grams):	740

Heck..what do I know about all these stuff?? Tell you what, I didn't fish through all those details. Wonder if you did.

All I know is I just need cash, my good ol' pair of feet to bring me to the right place (+transport ^^), a lil piece of advice or three (calls for shoppin companion), a generous splash of sanity and common sense, good bargain, and whatever else - importante - that didn't cross my mind.

When, oh, when?


"How much is that camera (doggy..not yet) in the window?" (toot toot!)


Ooii..you..no need to ask how much if no money lah. -.-

~ My Lil' Treasure ~

I thought I deleted this video clip. Turned out, I didn't. Glad it was still somewhere among my many unnecessary folders scattered here and there in my laptop.

Today, I decide to share it. Because I love the tune and the lyrics to it.

It would be bad if you're singing out of frustration or letting those notes out when you've hit that low-momentum-side of life (I'm trying to avoid using the word "negative" intentionally). Result of that: Lyrics tend to go wrong..not all the time though (sometimes the most beautiful words are crafted at such moments which lifts up someone else' spirit at some other point of time).

So friends, sing.

Because...you are happy :)

"D"

Cravings. Ughh. It gets very bad when the edibles that you want to stuff down your throat isn't anywhere near available for purchase.

I WANT (I'm kicking out 'to') EAT DOUGHNUTS!!!

Dunkin's or Big Apple's..seriously, whichever of the two would do. I like them both equally (delights in the two different doughnut world of taste and texture). No berat sebelah one.

Eow

Obviously, I'm just "borrowing" the photo above. Doing commercial on my blog =P

Know what?! My favorite donut is not on display!

Descriptions of this un-displayed one: It's not the typical ring donut..it's the flattened sphere one..that's filled/injected with the sweet filling of chocolate. Mmmm..yum--mee!!

Here, I show you.

Melanie Ong

I know, I know..the picture, yet again, didn't come from my cam. I've set today on my personal calendar as a, "Day of Borrowing".

The next time around when I land my feet at Big A, I'm going to hunt down for this sweetie.

Cokeworld Citizen

Californian Almond. Maybe it was the name that attracted me to it. Or maybe the appearance. I have yet to let all that icing and almond flakes and everything else to be digested by my tummy.


If I have my own car, I would head down to the nearest Big A outlet right now (City Mall?). Big A..I am going to get all the more acquainted with the doughnuts you have to offer.

I'm flashing a gigantic smile on my face now.

MidWeek

Lemme tell you this..my days seems to roll by a little faster when I've landed Wednesday. So, when the week's not too good (or so it seems), this is the day of the week I look forward too.

I'm missing the recent weekend plus a day.. and one of the little things I'm saying to myself right now is this.. "If you're missing something, then it must have been good."

I'm hoping for another enjoyable time, like the one I recently had, to come around again. I'd like to think soon ;)

- MindMaze -

A compliment forwarded to you is always nice especially if it's not just hollow daisy words. Got one this morning. Hmm..yeah..sweet to hear it at the beginning of the day. But I'm not entirely thrilled about it. And why so? Cause I'm afraid I can't continue living up to the expectations..the expectations that brought about that compliment. Then what? I'm doomed to a pit of self-pity? Crawled up in one small unnoticed corner? Like a scared little puppy?

Where's that steel of confidence and courage when I need it?

Di mana sih? I'm feeling Indonesian.

Yes, I know my options. But being born into the faith doesn't make me feel that I can turn to that "folded hands" moment all the time. It's just the lack of faith. No one's perfect. Everyone's got their tiny seed of flaw.

Being human is just plain complicated sometimes. And presently, I'm feeling it to the core of my existence. Maybe just half way down. Is there something else that's bothering me which I'm not aware of?

Wo bu zhi dao lah.Now I'm feeling Chinese.

Is it possible to pull off a smile in whatever storm you're going through? Like that song I've been singing in church a lot when I was younger? Who has such a spirit or energy? Show me that person and lemme me feel that spark of radiance as well.

Noku(+ku)ro? I'm feeling my blood running through me..the way it should.

You know what..I think it's just my time of the month. Get the hint.


You can help me change the title if the content does not suit it.

Lady Samurai!

I don't quite care whether or not the title above matches today's content.

Does it have to?


The new face of my wallpaper. Didn't exactly get tired of the previous one. Accidently lost it. That's all.

Never mind the old one. I like this one.

Don't play-play (the letter "l" with an "r" sound).

Shhh...

I've got a secret to tell...

But before that...

I wanna blurt out that...

I've updated my Messenger!

Yahoo la hoo!

I like the new fresh look of it!

Take a look if you haven't already downloaded this version.

Actually you have no option. Heh. You still have to look to know what's the secret I'm about to spill.

Shot pertama (1st shot)


Shot seterusnya (The following shot)

MSN is welcoming me back! Can see or not the "Welcome Back!"? Awwww..... like totalness. -.-

No "shot ketiga" or "shot terakhir". The second one was just for emphasis on the look of it.

Advertising purposes, people.

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So you still with me? If so, thank you for your utmost patience.

Here goes:

I've decided to pretend to like my job. I made that decision yesterday. I somehow have this silly theory that if I continue to pretend, pretend, (and yet again.. pretend even more), I might actually end up liking my job. I'll put this 'live mask' to the test.

Say..

I - I like waking up at a fixed time to go to work.

II - I like the fact that my office desk is right below the AC. Or the fact that I get the direct cool blow of it on my body. It'll make me shiver more on colder days (rainy days.. I'm so in Asian region). Don't believe point II.

III - I like my teaching schedule. The load is perfect.

IV - I like all my students. I mean all.

V- I like my afternoons at the school. It's a great way to spend my time off.

VI - I like to do lesson plans. Doing them makes me more creative.

VII - I like the fact that there will be lesser days off work this year.

VIII - I like marking students' work. Very fulfilling and entertaining.

IX - I like to think about my tomorrows at class. The events that come up are just fat with surprises.

X - Throw me anything you want me to do, my fellow colleagues. Chapel talks, emceeing.. anything at all. I like talking before a number of people. More the better. I like my job.


There.. 10 points for the 5 fingers on each hand.

Did you actually buy that? Everything I had just laid out?


Gawd.. spare me.


Now it's not a secret anymore. If you think that wasn't much of a secret, well, you think I'd actually tell you one where you can blackmail me and all that evil stuff? HUH?


About what I just said.. don't take it seriously. I'm not mad at anyone. Not even at myself.

Just that.. today is just so today.

Gone

Life without you is just the same.

Nah.. kidding.

I was never really fond of this pup. But I think I'm actually gonna miss it.

Can't really play around with my joke anymore where I'd go, "There it comes, running at a speed of 100km/hr."

Pup gone. And so is the joke.

'08.. ticked off

One thing bad about not having a proper internet connection is that the heavy duty bloggers cannot blog often. Okay, I don't exactly categorize myself as one of those but I would like to blog as often as I can or at least blog when I want to or feel like it with easy access. Siapa tidak mau oh? (Who doesn't want?)

Well well.. it's the 3rd day of the new year.. the dawn of another new day will be settling in soon hours from now.

Happy New Year peeps!!! Yes, and I mean it. Cause I'm hoping this year would be one heck of a ride for me (and you.. don't you hope so too?). In a good way 'course.

Need to have my own personal transport to go around. Wanna be more mobile. I'm thinking.. driving around aimlessly provided there's enough fuel in the tank.. plus a guarantee that my mode of transport won't suddenly break down or anything. I'm a female driver.. that very fact scares me some of the times for reasons I don't need to break to anyone. Pakai commen sense lah (Use your commen sense).

Have to show myself for work tomorrow. Yes, on a fine Sunday morning. It better be fine. Never mind.. working on a Sunday is not that bad if I choose not to feel that way about it.

One day, I'll be my own boss. Cross my fingers.


Ish.. hungry lah.. dah banyak lapar ni.